Your Beautiful, Messy, Crazy Life

The blog post you’re reading now, is not the first draft. Not even close. The first draft of what I’m writing now could hardly be recognizable as the same post that I started with. Usually when I write, I start with rambling. I write down anything that comes to mind until something pops up that interests me enough to direct my focus toward it. Then I start with jumbled words and sentences that squish together haphazardly to form an idea or a story, or whatever it decides it wants to be. Then I write and re-write, and hopefully out of the sculpting process, I’ll come up with something that is decent enough to share—but even then, I never know if it’s ‘complete’ because it’s always changing form.

Sometimes, on very rare occasions, an idea will pop into my head, and I’ll scramble to write it down as quickly as I can, and when I do, it is complete. It’s five minutes of magic. But like I said, that is very rare, and if it happened like that all the time, then I probably wouldn’t value the beauty and ease of it as much as I do.

Creativity usually takes time. It’s good, then bad, then hopefully good again…it’s messy and crazy and beautiful as it stops and starts and ebbs and flows, and as a conduit for creativity, all you can do is play along and enjoy the ride.

Your life is one big, ever-expanding, expression of beautiful, crazy, messy, creativity. You are creating all.the.time. You create this moment, and the next, and the next. Sometimes it’s good, sometimes it’s bad, but usually it’s always good again as it stops and starts, and ebbs and flows. You are a conduit for the ever-expansive expression of the Universe, so essentially, you’re playing with God. Or Buddha. Or Energy. Or Spirit. Or Goddess. Or whatever you want to call ‘IT’.

And it’s not a game of winners and losers. It’s a game of playing make-believe. A game of creating solution and dissolution. Stops and starts. Ups and downs. Twists and turns. There can’t be any winners or loser’s because there is no end to it all.

Think back to the darkest day of your life. The day you thought you couldn’t go on; in fact, perhaps you didn’t even want to go on.

What happened?

You went on.

And things got better.

And then, probably, things got bad again, and then better, then bad, and on and on it goes…

There’s no beginning or end; it’s all just creative flow.

This moment in your life is not the first draft of your masterpiece, and it’s certainly not the last. You’re somewhere in the middle of the creative process, and when it’s good, perhaps you share a little bit of that juicy goodness with others, and when it’s not so good, you keep sculpting. Or maybe you just crash and burn for a while as you catch your breath and get back on your feet.

And sometimes, on rare occasions or maybe not-so-rare occasions, you’ll be hit with a spark of insight or a shift of perspective, and you’ll experience five minutes of magic. And in that moment, you’ll remember who you really are.

And you’ll remember that you are not lost, because you’re right here,
playing a beautiful, messy, crazy game called life.

And it is perfect as is.

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This is my first official post on this blog, and after weeks and weeks of pulling ideas from my heart, organizing them through my mind, and finally, finally, offering them out into the world, I feel…terrified.

I feel terrified because it doesn’t feel quite ‘finished’ yet.

But that’s just it; creative work is never ‘finished’.

Creativity is always moving, shifting and evolving, so if you’re waiting for some magic moment when you can grab it and say that it is finished; ready; perfect…well, I don’t think it ever happens—not completely anyway.

I think when it comes to creative work; the best you can hope for is ‘enough’. It’s enough. It’s done enough. Good enough. And if you can catch yourself in that space, you had better take the leap before the moment is gone; before the courage to share it slips through your fingers.

How much of your creative work has never been seen by anyone else? And since art is in the eye of the beholder, who’s to say that your work isn’t already perfect to somebody else? Once you offer your creativity out into the world, it doesn’t belong to you anymore anyway. It belongs to everyone, and anyone who lays their eyes upon it gets to own a part of it as they interpret it in their own way.

So if you’re sitting on some creative work or ideas, I encourage you to take the leap. Let it go, and let it be whatever it is meant to be to everyone else.

And here’s the best part: when you release your creative work, you create space for more; and the more it flows through you, the more pure it becomes, and what you hold in your heart will manifest more closely to what you had envisioned it to be.

Don’t look, just jump.

Take the leap.

For one more little boost of inspiration, hop on over to my Make it Manifest Instagram page for a lovely quote by Agnes de Mille.